While the mammogram is not as bad as many people will tell you it is not comfortable either. Having a complete stranger lift, pull, tug and shove on your arm, shoulder and breast was a bit more disconcerting to me than the actual compression of said breasts for the x-rays. Two aunts, one from both sides of the family, if I remember correctly have been diagnosed with breast cancer. I am relieved to say that my results came back normal sans cancer.
My poor husband has had to work all weekend so I hung out with a friend going to the movies and some shopping. We both got some great deals and I was able to surprise the hubby with a new shirt that he just loves.
It was also a reminder that everyone is constantly struggling with something. I don’t do well in large crowds they can cause me to have a panic attack if I can’t get away from them or start getting bumped a lot. Like most people I prefer strangers to stay out of my personal bubble space lol. The funny thing with me is that even if I am in a situation that could potentially cause me to have a panic attack I will not have one if the person with me also suffers from them. I don’t quite know for certain why this is other than I have an extremely protective instinct for those I care about. And that is exactly what ended up happening.
I had no idea that this friend had the same difficulties that I struggle with and at one point it was all just too much for them. They checked out before I did and when I got out of the store and looked around for them I found them fighting off an attack. My heart broke because I know all too well the mental pain they were fighting against and immediately that mother badger instinct washed over me. The attack didn’t last long but once you have one it makes you skittish of having others get anywhere near you unless they are someone you fully trust. I am blessed to have friends that can make me feel safe again when this happens to me and even more blessed to have friends that trust me to care for them and keep them safe when they themselves have one.
Please remember as you go through your days that everyone is fighting something. You cannot always see a persons’ disability as anxiety, panic attacks, depression and others are not visible unless that person is in the midst of a breakdown.
I hope that everyone is having a grand weekend and have a wonderful week. Blessed Be each and every one of you.